It’s valentines!
It’s Vday! To all those lover dovers there, to my friends, my family, to my former love that I still love til now of course (And I bet you won’t even read this haha), happy valentines. <3
Week 1
I woke up at this time last week thinking that I had a nightmare. Turns out, I still was, only it was real. I can’t keep shut about these things unlike you, since I’m on the receiving end. Slowly waking up now. Not yet, but I’m towards that direction.
Things I’ve realized (Updated)
1. I learned how to sacrifice. Spending money without thinking about the consequences. Sacrifice means not expecting a lot in return. Just the appreciation.
2. I put a lot of effort in making things work. I do my best, not try.
3. Embarrassing yourself is fun when you do it for someone you love.
4. Understanding the other party despite not knowing you could completely help.
5. Establishing family relations is key. Without that, relationships will not survive.
6. Going out of your way to help your special someone is something to appreciate.
7. Spoiling someone keeps me happy.
8. I love noticing insecurities of the other party, it’s something I appreciate.
9. I get jealous, but I don’t prohibit you nor confine you to what I want you to be.
10. Love is a choice.
11. “No” is a very powerful word. Your world is disrupted, changed when you hear its sound. I learned that the hard way after I’ve said “Yes” a lot.
12. I don’t put you in a cage. For me, it’s a hyperbole when you say I do. I’m proud of that.
13. I do know how to treat a girl. Sometimes, I just don’t know how to be treated.
The door is closed. It was closed rather quickly. But what can I do? That’s how life goes. It changes. The only way for it not to change is if you choose it not to change.
If someone decides to snap away from you, you know you’re too good for that someone.
Found some ground
I finally found myself. I know what to do already. Better than a few days ago. I’ll start walking away from the door you closed already. I’ll look back, but I’ll go as far as I could until I see another door. Thank you, you.
Lost.
Still lost. I’m not blaming you, but why? I just hope sooner or later, you realize that I’m valuable. And you don’t lose your valuables.
3rd day.
And I still can’t believe it. Still shocked. It’s like PAGASA saying that it won’t rain, then Ondoy ravages Luzon. That’s how it feels.
